Sometimes I need a place where I can just be me. As much as I love being a wife and mother, and as much as those things are such a big part of who I am, I feel like those parts are an extension of myself. And there are times I want to spend time developing my inner self and let out the thoughts and feelings that are all me. I feel like the ideas and feelings inside me that make me who I am can get suppressed quite often as I spend most of my time thinking for other people. Like remembering that my husband wants his good pair of jeans clean for tomorrow, Libby and Ellie need lunch money, Milo needs to practice his letter sounds, and I need to remind Indy to clean out the litter box. Oh and don't forget the baby! Nash is taking up most of my brain function right now. Trying to take care of a newborn and everyone else has become my biggest challenge!
But knowing that I have this little space in the universe for me to share my thoughts, ideas, and feelings makes me happy. Because it's so easy when you are a mom to just survive and forget that you are a person too. A person that has experienced a lot in her little corner of the world but realizes that it is only the tip of the iceberg. That there is so much about this world and the people in it that I want to learn about, to see, to do, to go, and I have to start keeping track of it somewhere.
And for me, that place will be here...
:0)carrilyne
